Away

I really need to get away from kl for awhile. But where to? Thinking of uk to further my master. Hahahaha...such a long way of dreaming I am. Somebody plz slap me on the face! Pretty plz...like immediately!!!
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Spell the word.

Did u put a spell on me? I never think of anyone like this before. #LoveShitOpsIMeanLoveSick
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Dream

This is too much. I want to run & hide. Forget all the sorrows. Left what's not belongs to me. I wish its all just a dream. Wake up!!!
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Can we work it out?

There's still have 'I need u' behind every single of my silence. 'I am thinking of u' even u are with me. 'I love u' but I never say it because I'm scared about how are u gonna respond. I don't know why I'm telling u these words. But for sure I really want our relationship works. I hope u feel the same way I do.
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Learn to appreciate.

I want to love somebody without feels worried or second thoughts. Makes me forget how stupid and reckless I am, just be in love and nothing else.
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Raya?

Wake me up when raya ends.
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When a girl that too naive for L.O.V.E shared her thoughts about Love

True love is like ghosts, which everyone talks about and few have seen. ~François, duc de La Rochefoucauld. 

 Lately I've heard many kinds of love stories from people around me. Happy endings, Horrible endings, No endings...just name it! Love did hurts...I've experience it many times (actually idk whether it could be love or shit...hahahaha).

 For those who have found their true love...congratz! And plz do cherish the love. Don't ever ever let it go away from u. If u trying or thinking wants to break his/her heart. U are moron! U sucks! And u will regret it someday! Then, when u realize it's all too late. So, don't! What goes around comes around! Relationship is about Love, Trust, Appreciation, Loyalty, Faith, Respect, Sincererity & Honesty (anyone who wants too add some thoughts? be my guest! ;p)

Those who are still searching, waiting or doing nothing bout it. Chillax! The time will come yaw! There's somebody out there for u. That's what God promise to everyone. We might not meet him/her here but in heaven.

For the broken hearted, hey...don't feel embarrased! I believe everybody had felt the same way u do. It's better to be broken heart than never feel the love itself. The truth is everyone is going to hurt u. U juz have to figure out who is worth the pain.

Always listen to your heart. It's on your left side, but it's always right.

Trust your instinct. Have faith on it. Listen to lil voice in your head. Do what your heart says. Pray for the best.

Real eyes realize real lies.

No one can defined who u are, Lady Gaga.


I'm agreed with her. Okie...I have a confession I'm very sensitive and emotional person. Hard to believe...isn't it? Yup, I looks so tough and emo proof from the outside. But in the inside I'm so fragile. When people hurting me and I'm bout to cry I always respond by showing some anger or be cynical to them. Sometimes I'm just laugh like nothing would hurt me. But deep down inside of me are falling apart.

What I really hates in life is when someone told me lies. Even it's white but it's still a lie. But I'll forgive them if they makes confession and come clean bout it. But if he/she cover it up with more lies and I knew the truth. That person will be such a dead meat! I'm not saying I'm gonna kill him/her. I leave it to God. I believe in karma. So, caution! U just buy a ticket to ride the karma coaster.

I've been used before by someone I really love and care about. It's sucks and hurts. I've been told with lies. I don't know why they did that. Maybe that's what they have been taught to live by take an advantage from others. They thought just because I'm a strong person so they have the right to hurt me. Too much pain will makes u grow stronger. Yup, I agreed with that. But, u don't have the right to hurt me all over again.

Thx a lot for using me.

                                                                                     

Who's that lucky girl?

Am I really that lucky??? Err...when she said that straight to my face its kinda hmm...idk how to describe it. Is she jealous of me??? I'll be so flattered if she does. Hahahaha...sounds cruel! Stop it Lulu! U r not that dumb stupid! Trust ur instinct plz! U know they always right! Dun live on denial! Face it! And punch her face! Wowowowowowo...that's too dramatic! HAHAHAHAHA

hey hey hey peeps!

Sorry coz it's been a long long time I haven't updated my bloody hell blog. Well, actually I'm kinda typeless coz of the 'memories' that hunted me for months! I dun care if u think I'm being pathethic or what. But that's what I really felt. At least, I ain't lying to myself. Life's have ups and downs it's a circle I mean cycle! Lifecycle! That's the word! Okie...for the previous post if u notice it's kinda heartbreaking moment for me. Actually I don't want to talk bout E (now I named him as monkey...plz agree with me! haha) but only here I can express my feeling tho. If u feel this is annoying...stop reading! Hahahahahaha...just kidding!

Hmm...I don't know why I'm giving him a second chance. Usually, I didn't give my ex's a second chance. I'm too naive for L.O.V.E. (trust me!!!) I don't know if he really deserve this second chance but somehow and sometimes he show me that he's change to be a better person for me but mostly errrr...IDK! So, let the destiny decide for us. If he's never meant to be for me then let it be. I'll be fine. I can live without him...again.

Uhh okie...enough! It's bout me now!

Thx God I've finished my exam, thesis and studies =)
Right now I really miss to go to class and teasing my classmates. I <3 them! All of u! (VIP: Ieyra O'neil, Elin R, Nurul Ariffah, Carla Cluk & Nur Aniqah )  Since I've finished my studies I have to move back to my parents. I hate to say gud bye to my housemates! Especially to my bloody hell bff (u know who u r!) She's always be a supportive listener to me. And her name is Naira not Nera, okieeeee. HAHAHAHAHA

                                             * I'm gonna miss y'all!

I have to admit that u did makes me feel alright for once in my life

It's hard to start all over again. So it's better for us to remains as a stranger. I can't be with u...I have to protect myself. Sounds selfish but I had to do it for my own gud. It's the time for me to focus on myself. I hope u understand. I'll remember all ur advices u told me. I'll be gud but not for u. But for someone who worth it and deserve to be treat

"The boyfriend every girl would want"

When you break her heart - [ the pain NEVER really goes away ]

When she misses you - [ she's hurting inside ]

When she says its over - [ she STILL wants you to be hers ]

When she re-posts this bulletin - [ she wants you to read it ]

When she walks away from you mad - [ Follow her]

When she stare's at your mouth - [ Kiss her ]

When she pushes you or hit's you - [ Grab her and don’t let go ]

When she starts cursing at you - [ Kiss her and tell her you love her ]

When she ignores you - [ Give her your attention] 
When she pulls away - [ Pull her back ]

When you see her at her worst - [ Tell her she's beautiful]

When you see her start crying - [Just hold her and don’t say a word ]

When you see her walking - [ Sneak up and hug her waist from behind ]

When she's scared - [ Protect her ]

When she lays her head on your shoulder - [ Tilt her head up and kiss her ]

When she steals your favorite hat - [ Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night]

When she teases you - [ Tease her back and make her laugh ]

When she doesn’t answer for a long time - [ reassure her that everything is okay ]

When she looks at you with doubt - [ Back yourself up with the TRUTH]

When she says that she likes you - [ she really does more than you could understand ]

When she grabs at your hands - [ Hold hers and play with her fingers ]

When she bumps into you - [ bump into her back and make her laugh ]

When she tells you a secret - [ keep it safe and untold ]

When she looks at you in your eyes - [ don’t look away until she does ]

- Stay on the phone with her even if she’s not saying anything

- DON'T let her have the last word

- DON'T call her hot, but gorgeous or beautiful is soo much better

- Say you love her more than she could ever love you

- Argue that she is the best girl ever

- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go

- When she says she's OK don’t believe it, talk with her - because 10 yrs later she'll remember you

- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her

- Call her before you sleep and after you wake up

- Treat her like she's all that matters to you

- Tease her and let her tease you back

- Stay up all night with her when she's sick

- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think its stupid

- Give her the world

- Let her wear your clothes

- When she's bored and sad, hang out with her

- Let her know she's important

- Kiss her in the pouring rain

- When she runs up at you crying, the first thing you say is; "Who's ass am I kicking today baby?"

*he already did half of this list but he couldn't finish it.

Life is Drama!

I don't understand why destiny allowed some people to meet, when there's no way for them to be together

She's my mama! Thx God u are my mom

Last nite i had a conversation with my mom bout love and boys...mom said u have to find someone who's u can cope with...can accept the way u are, love u unconditionally, treat u right n blablabla. Mom said, I'm lucky to have parents likes her and daddy. Because they are the most sporting parents ever! ( i agree with that 100%) But I just said, mom I think u might find bunch of boys for me so that i just can pick them! Next,next,next (say it with snapping my fingers...hahaha). Then she's said marriage with no feeling is the hardest thing, darling! Hahaha...but mom seriously I'm fed up with finding some men! Can i just wait??? She thinks I'm just joking (yeahhh...sometimes I did but most of the time I'm serious) Actually, i dun even know what I want. I'm still lost! Its not that I want to get married in a hurry. But, I'm wondering who's I'm gonna end up with??? Nahhh...I'm still young! So for the time being of waiting for Mr.Right, I'm gonna just relax and live my life. I know he's out there. Hey, Mr! Whoever and wherever u are...just give me a sign!

Answer me, cupid!

We are not gonna get 'us'
We both knows we just go with the flow
We tried and tired with those lies
Maybe we try and maybe we just let it die
But I'm still high
And wondering why

Together u and me
We can touch the sky
Wrote our names at the rainbows and clouds
The stars will be shining
Birds will be singing
Celebrating the feeling
But that's only when I'm dreaming

As we walked on down by the street
I know u can hear my heartbeat
I'm pretty mess up and reckless
Don't left me hopeless and senseless
Cupid, please take me out
I need to stay away
Save me
I'm drowning even there's no ocean, here and there

Love is fool
Love is blind
I don't know how and why I'm still believe in love
Is it love?
Or just an act?
Answer me, cupid!
Don't tell me lies
Tell me the truth
Even it's hurt
Because, big girls don't cry

And I'll be just fine

are u judging me?

I always be a gud gurl but they never realize it. They keeps judging me by the way I looks and talks. Yeah...I admit it that I swore a lot, but I never meant it. I'ts just the way I am...sorry I can't be perfect. I love being me.

People can talk whatever they wants coz they never really know me...only true friend of mine know exactly who I am.

hit the road!

25/10/2010

me, ieyra, aza and ferol went to kinokuniya at klcc...just have fun there hahaha ;p

i'm so tense that day! the classes is over but i've got plenty of ASSignment that has to be done (already submit...yeayyyy!)

there's a few of my pic

KISS OF LIFE...hehe ;p

mirror mirror on the book who's the bitch?

okie, this is my video...hahahahaha

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vj3R8QV6d10

dun hate the player! hate the game, baby!!!

first, when we met i like u then i luv u
it's easy to fall in luv with sum1 like u
but easy come easy go
and i juz go with the flow
every lil things that u said its all a big lies
but i'm just act like i dun know anything
coz i want to see how far u would go

it's time for me to say gud bye
coz i'm done with no more tries
i dun want to be fooled with your lies
u would see me no more tears in my eyes
and i have to fly so high
leaving you with questions why's?

easy to answer why
coz i'm giving u what u deserve in a first place
it's all bout karma, baby
dun hate me...juz hate the game
the game that u create
we juz the player
and i'm playing by the rules
what u give u'll get back
gud luck in your journey...onwards!

a girl like me

she's crazy
vulnerable, but no ones knows
she sucks it up all,alone
she's afraid
with all the games she played
she thinks she's stand by herself

when she was younger
everybody's says she's juz a lil girl
they dun trust her in any ways
she's juz smile n pretend everything is okie
even she's not

she doesn't want they to know
that she's weak
she's not a coward
but juz scared
doing the same mistakes
over n over again

she's need to find the strength inside
and she continue searching
eventhough sometimes she wants
to give up it all n juz die

Alhamdulillah...finally i've got a placement for my internship!

it's been hard days for me and my friends seeking for our internship placement...at first i felt kinda excited,worried,scared and bla bla bla. many companies asked us why our requirement for internship is 2 months? we only takes for 3 months...minimum! haihhhh...sometimes my tongue kinda stuttered to gives an answers. some of them give a look like something wrong with us. but most of them giving a good response =)

last week we all goes to carrier fair at mid valley...ohh there's some in relevant q's they asked me such as "r u Malaysian?" haihhhh...do i look different from other Malaysian??? only Allah knows.

damn...i'm so stressed out,man! on that day, for the 1st time i ate nasi ayam penyet! it's so delicious hehe ;p

today...Alhamdulillah finally i've got a placement for my internship =)

bff...to be love or to be hate??? i choose to hate!!!

surprise isn't it??? well bff means bitch fren forever...haha i juz twisted it lil bit ;p

y u have to be like this?! i put my trust on u,man!

u keeps on giving some lame excuses...damn! i'm totally don't trust u at all

The lost zombie at Studio 11, Tasik Permaisuri

Have a blast Hari Raya,guyz!!!

helloooooo...everyone! i know its kinda late to wishing Selamat Hari Raya to all of u but i think it's not too late, am i rite??? hehe ;p
btw...me n my family r going back to daddy's hometown which is at Tg.Tualang,Perak. (9/9/2010) we depart from home around 2 p.m n reached at Kellie's Castle 4.30 p.m n capturing some photo's (some??? it's plenty,man! haha).

(10/9/2010) Friday, It's Raya Day!!!

i woke up around 8 a.m (yeahhh i knew it's kinda late!) n guess what??? i've got cough n my head is spinning around! haihhhhh
around 10 a.m we go to cemetery at Sg.Durian...Atok's grave. i never met him coz he died since my dad 18 years old (if i'm not mistaken). i wish i've known him...later we goes to Opah Wah's home. then go back to Batu 26...n so many relatives came to Opah's house. i'm kinda restless coz i'm not feeling well that day.

(11/9/2010) Saturday, Going to Cameron Highland's for the 1st time! haha...lucky me!

around 9 a.m we r going to Cameron, it takes 2 hours from Opah's home. around 11 a.m we reach at Cameron Valley Tea House...having breakfast there n hunting some awesome pictures with my bro's n cousin's...we r so crazy!!! then we going to Atok's Dahalan home...a few hours later we r going to some places at Cameron such Rose Valley n bla bla bla! i can't remember!!! hahahaha...sorry! i'm getting older day by day! it's normal,okie!!!

(12/9/2010) Sunday, Going back to KL

woke up at 8.42 a.m (that's what i remember, haha) brush my teeth then breakfast hehe...later take a shower then goes to Pak Long's home. It's open house time! eat,eat,eat,eat, still eating! haha...after that we r going to Cik Normah's home. then going back to kl...we reached at our home at 6.55 p.m. then i'm going to wangsa walk with kak ayu n her ehem2. we r playing bowling...it's not my lucky day! i'm sucks!!! okie...that's all. bubbye guyz! have a blast hari raya!!!

p.s: i'm still got 'duit raya'...hahahaha i'm so lucky!!!

hepi fasting everyone!!!

tomorrow all Muslims will start fasting...everytime when the Ramadhan come i always remember of my childhood moments in fasting month. We wake up early morning for 'sahur' and my dad will woke me up by singing a 'weird' song...it's sounds like 'indung-indung kepala lindung , tidak puasa tidak sembahyang'...i'm still confused bout it haha

damn it...i mish my famliy =(

it's been a month since i'm not going home. juz now my mon called me n she said how my nieces missed me...damn i mish those gurls. this tuesday will be kenduri at my home for my new nephew Adam Daniel. arghhh i'll be back. wait for me mom!!!